Amandalovelyxxx's Journals

things have changed for me

and im cool cause i just quoted panic at the disco.

but anyways. A LOT of things have changed.

some for the good some for the bad.

im going to turn 16 in a little over a month

i have a new cat.

amazingly i made some friends in arizona.

i got over my sara problem.

anddd yea.

all i can think of now.

but yea. just saying that a lot of things have changed and that if anyone gives a fuck, i'll be updateing this thing more.

maybe.

idkk.

wellll bye. :)

ranting rampage.

This is what happens when i read 6 issues of alternative press in 3 hours after 1 1/2 months without reading it at all. :)

I'm gonna admit that ive gone through a lot of shit in my life.

You might not think its that bad.

Its not as intense as other peoples experiences

But its still shit people donâ�™t want to go through.

Ive done a lot of dumbass things in my life.

Ive done countless embarrassing and way awkward things in my life.

And I donâ�™t regret anything.

Even now when things are far from being stable and good

And I kick my self everyday for doing these things,

I know in the future I will look back and be embarrassed,

But when I think about it I will be glad I did it.

Even if it was really stupid and stressful.

That experience was apart of my life.

It makes me special.

UNIQUE.

Different.

In a world that everyone is copying everything

Clothes

Music

Whatever

(and I have to admit that I have fallen victim to copying at least a little bit as well but that human nature.)

You only live one life.

Donâ�™t waste your time caring about what people think.

Donâ�™t waste it in front of the tv watching a marathon of your favorite show.

Donâ�™t waste it slouching in front of your computer lurking peoples myspaces and changing your myspace every 2 hours and checking it every 15 minutes to see if you BFFL messaged you back.

Try to change the way the world is heading.

If we keep going on like this everyone will be overweight and you wont be able to walk correctly and you wont be able to hold a functional or educated conversation.

And I know im being a little hypicritical about some of this but im scared.

It would totally bite if that was how the world turned out.

Everythings selling out.

But anyways.

Go outside.

Ride your bike.

Or your scooter whatever you prefer.

Read books.

Take your dog (or cat or fish) for a walk.

Donâ�™t give a shit about what people say or assume what they are thinking.

As long as your happy and comfortable there isn't really anything to worry about.

And donâ�™t waste your life talking shit or spreading it.

It will come back and bite you so hard in the ass that nothing will be left.

my hair

is fucked.

yea. i need to fix it badly.

btw. arizona is stupid. i hate it immensly. i miss san francisco. :(

moving sucks.

yea. thats it.

my life can only get better.

im gonna pull an emo kid and complain about how much my life sucks.

ok. so things were great then my dog ran away. after that i found out that i was officially moving again. but this time i dont want to leave. im moving to fuckin tucson araizona. my friends adn i call it the mysterious beyond like from the land before time. yea. just mentioning this. fuckkk. im gonna miss california.

revolution

i realized that in order for me to be organized i have to make lists of everything. how fucking lame is that??? i think im gonna stop posting these. hell. fuck buzznet.

havent posted anything in like forever.

yeeaa. im not a depressed little emo kid anymore. life is fantastic. except for the skanks (like christine hurty) and the dipshits who like to talk shit (like brennan) and yeeaaa. my friends appreciate me and im doing pretty good in school and i have a goal in life. everythings great. how are you???? =D

im getting into the holiday spirit of thanksgiving

i am thankful for a lot of things. my old friends for sticking by me and helping me through shit and my new friends for putting up with me and helping me through a lot of issues they arent even aware about. im thankful for such a loving mom and dad even though my dad gets on my nerves a lot. and im thankful for the best gramma in the world. i just wish i could of spent more time with her when i was little. im thankful for my dog and all the nice things i have like ipod and internet and cell phones. im thankful to all the people who believe i can do anything and push me to do good in school and support me in school and stuff. im thankful for all the people who do good for the world and im thankful for love. love is the best thing ever. yea. i love you.

updates

like anyone truly cares but im going to update some stuff. im to lazy to do it now though. anywho. i see a boyfriend in the near future for me. :) ill give the details later. its a pretty nifty story actually. staytuned bitches. oh yea. im 15!!! yeeaaa.

fuck

fuck everything.